Thursday, July 20, 2006

In Dreams I Walk With You

For the last 2 weeks I have been dreaming of walking.

In the beginning, I would dream that I got out of bed and walked to the bathroom. I would then realize that I didn't have my walker and that I wasn't supposed to walk without it. Walking there would be no problem, but after my realization, I would be petrified of screwing my hip up on the walk back.

Then, last week the dreams changed. I would be farther away from the walker/crutches. I would get out of bed and walk to the kitchen where I would make my realization.

Last night, I dreamt I was at school, sorting out a financial aid problem, when I suddenly realized that I was walking without my crutches and had left said crutches at home.

They say when extreme drug addicts go into rehab they have vibrant dreams of doing drugs. For example, junkies dream of shooting heroin and they can really feel it, in their dreams. Usually they wake up in a cold sweat, afraid they've used again.

Me? I haven't been able to walk in 51 days. I haven't been able to walk pain/worry free for about 3 years. But at night, in my dreams, I walk without pain.


2 comments:

  1. Anonymous4:12 PM

    Interesting dream but don't think of it as not walking you have been only with assitive devices... However, you will soon be on the next phase of your recovery and walking soon enough! In many respects, when your 2 legs hit terra firma for the first time it will feel strange and at times frustrating...Patience

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  2. Heather.....sounds like you are doing so well. I am finally home. Glad you are doing well. I have not had walking dreams....I am sure I will have them now. Feeling great. In ocean these past few days and walking in the water. Feels like a big ice pack. Ahhh! Jen

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